How far can you be without any encouragement

I review the chatting logs, feeling  tired, my heart is tired, I don't know why. The lease of apartment is almost solved, bf also here with me , the work still also nice(in some sense it is), I don't know why now I feel so upset.

" I am trying to behave. But it won't take much encouragement from you to make me behave as I did again ", maybe this right, without any encouragement ,how far can you be?

In Marslow Demand Theory, there are five hierarchies: Physiological, Safety, Belonging, Esteem, Self-actualisation. I don't know which hierachy the encouragement will be, but it's really very important in human life, especial when someone done lots in your position.

Maybe you don't wanna exhibit yourself in front of everyone's face, since that how they canl pay much attention to you, sometimes I laugh at myself, what kind of people you are belonging  to ,superiority ,high-hearted? Actually, I just do normal things in the world ,then when shall I shine?

Yes, maybe I should envisage myself , and envisage the world , I know my position, but also eager encouragement, so next time when you know your staff have done his/her best ,just give some encouragement , maybe this is much  more efficient  than your salary

btw:http://changingminds.org/explanations/needs/maslow.htm