Somebody~why I can not be there where you are??????????????

Somebody~maybe you are just not that into me!
I know that whatever you want to be, I should not hesitate to support you, I would be happy and satisfied as long as you have gone well.
But today when I have read the e-mail that you sent to his roommate, my heart was deeply pricked. More than six months have passed, you still love him so deeply, and perhaps in the future there is nobody can replace his position in your heart.
I  re-read that e-mail several times. You said in the e-mail: "对于他而言，我不想我什么都不是，我不想连云烟都算不上，我只期盼在他的世界里，有我的小小的一角，哪怕是被忽略的一角"I suddenly felt that these words are like coming from my mouth to tell you the same truth. perhaps it is really as the words saying:" you are the whole world for me, but I am nothing in your world! "
From October 30th for the first time when I see you to now, I had never given up. Do you know? I miss you at all times, and sometimes I may not contact you for a very long period of time , because each time that I touch with you made me missing you more. However, I have never tell anybody, I  just put them written into my blog, perhaps you have never felt it before.  I do not know whether it is that you do not care about me, or I was too care about you. . .

Somebody~Do you know? Just one smile from you,would make my whole world bright. Perhaps the warmth that I get it from each moment when I miss you is enough for me!

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呵呵~其实我知道我不应该在这里说这些的，只是我看到那封邮件后忽然感觉心里好难受,所以就一股脑的。。。。。
不过somebody放心，请相信，我仍会像以前那样义无反顾得支持你，疼爱你~
                                                             

                                                                                2009-03-19